First off, if you are one of the few that has actually read these, I am sorry for the delay in reposting. Haven’t felt inspired to write an entry in here and have started back at school. Well, thanks for those of you who read and who are interested in my musings.
Now, if you listen to the Podcast, and if your reading this I am assuming you do, you should know that Tor, Dawson, Silas and I are all preparing to go to the Broadside Bash here in two weeks. For this I have started to stress. I have limited tournament experience, I know I am a decent to good player and I have a good list in my eyes. Due to this limited experience I start to question myself and my abilities to compete. Though to tell you the truth, I always have butterflies and doubts before any match, even against people that I routinely beat or for games that don’t matter much. It is something about my competitive nature tied in with my low self esteem (I will say it now, it has been a problem I have had for a long time). This causes me to always question my ability to win. Now, I often calm down and my nerves settle down around turn 3 when I can see how the game may unfold. I am not sure what to do about all this. Perhaps its even a good thing, giving me that competitive edge. Keeping me aware of all that is going on. I have been playing games against some good lists and viewing the scenarios. I am going over rules and reviewing several Codex. I am hoping that when the time comes around I will be ready and shall be able to represent myself and the podcast with a decent performance.
Beyond the table top, I am working on finishing up my guard’s painting. Just last night I decided to lay out all my units in formation to see what I have and what I needed to paint. I am down to 3 models and finishing up a tank. Well, I suppose there are a few other things I would want to go back and work on, but for the sake of the tournament, I am almost done with everything (pics to be posted shortly on the forums, though I am no where near the skill many of you are). I am excited to see my 82nd ITF on the table top, ready to face the enemies of the Imperium and those the Inquisition has suspicions against.
Look for my next entry probably during or right after this tournament.